Some place that doesn’t exist anymore.

“I wanna go home but when I do it doesn’t feel like I’m home. There’s part of me yearning for some place that doesn’t exist anymore.”

Been writing those sentence back in 2019. And I thought that would be forever relevant to me.
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Have you ever missed some moments so much?

Scrolling through my old photos when I was living in Bandung, while listening to the music I used to repeat that time… makes me really nostalgic. Sure, music is the trigger for me. Some songs feels like a direct link to certain times (and people) in my life. I accidentally play certain songs and it can immediately bring back all the memories!

The bitter is, when it hits — I always have a feeling that I’m missing something. Either the place or the person… I can’t even distinguish it. Maybe both?
Even though I come back to that place, or reaching out those people I miss, there’s still something missing. Perhaps, those things would best describe as a moment. Yes please bring back the moment cause I need more time to feel it!

I wonder why do we miss place or people?
Is it because we love those things? Hmm not really. Many times I found myself miss the people who used to annoyed me. Also, miss every moment of struggle that I faced (full of blood, sweat, and tears lol).

Yeah, whatever it is — for me, that’s nothing wrong to miss someone or places. Probably, the things we miss — might be the best moment that ever happen. Even though sometimes it’s bittersweet, remembering the past is the only thing I can do to keep those things alive deep down in my heart.

Well, It’s nice to rewind those golden moments back then, since it always taught us something that make us who we are now.

Cherish every moment of life.
It never failed bring a smile to me!